I started thinking about motherhood in my 20s, at the time didn’t have a partner and was not sure if I could even give birth with my dystonia and produce a healthy baby and even if I did manage to; would society accept a mother with a health condition. The whole idea created a whole lot of fear. As much as I tried to bury this idea, I could only feel my maternal intinct getting stronger.
After meeting the right person and a heap of research, Information and constant appointments I finally had the reassurance to go ahead and do it. I finally got pregnant but unfortunately, in my first pregnancy It didn’t all go to plan. My first baby was a little girl whom I had early at only 22 weeks and sadly lost.
A year after I gave birth to a healthy beautiful little boy, I couldn’t have Botox during my pregnancy as my consultant advised against it, which was not easy. my shaking increased slightly and I felt very self conscious and the pregnancy and dystonia caused a lot of back neck pain.
It was all worth it and I opted to do it again and had another beautiful baby boy a year after. Three years on I have two incredibly energetic toddlers. There is no doubt motherhood is challenging for any parent but does dystonia make it even more harder?
I don’t think so for me, although I cant compare to a time when I was a mother without dystonia. Maybe i have just adapted. My only biggest concern is that when they start school I only hope the other kids wont pick on them because of my health condition.