I know in my experience social anxiety and “Dystonia” can go hand in hand, at the best of times. For example, something as simple as going to supermarket, can very quickly turn into what I like to refer to as a anxiety explosion.
So when those automatic doors open and you enter with your trolley, most of the time you initially feel calm, relaxed, experiencing what could be classed as blissful minutes of normality, reassured that you have scanned the fruit aisle carefully, and no one seemed to have noticed your Dystonia.
Then all of a sudden while you are reaching for something like diapers, a child comes out of no where and shouts”mummy mummy why is that lady’s head shaking” as you look around everyone’s focus seems to be on you, at that moment you just want the floor to “whoosh” up and suck you in. Unfortunately its not an option, so you stand tall, head forward to the next aisle while noticing mothers edging there kids away from you like your the walking plague. You’d think that they would catch on, that my ass is too big for the size 6 nappy’s so therefore they must be for my kids “HELLO I AM A MUM TOO.”
You finally make it to the next aisle you take a deep breath, and prepare yourself for the supermarket sweep of your life, “ready steady shop”
Well if that isn’t enough strain on your brain I don’t know what is, talking of “strain on the brain” lets face it, we rarely give ourselves the most easiest time. I know I certainly don’t, often judging my self through other peoples reactions towards me, even people I do not know. Moreover with all that mental strain and anxiety, how do stop yourself from completely loosing it, well that is a interesting question and that one that I have spent many years trying to figure out, which leads me to say i can only give you my personal experience and knowledge.
What i found helps is a few key things like staying positive, try and find good in everything, even that terrible experience at the super market, “so yes some people may think i am a freak, but look around me, i have people that care, love, me and that is where my focus should be. i also find doing things like hobby’s exploring creativity helps lift my sprite like writing for me.
Build your happiness back up by taking care of emotional, spiritual, metal, psychical health really keeps me balanced, and confident stems from happiness , last of all remember nothing is worth disrupting your metal peace for to long.
Stay blessed lovely people.