I hated you when you first entered my life, I could not understand why you chose me to punish.
That hate for you turned into hate for myself, low self esteem, low self value and a negative perspective of myself, which lead to negative mindless affirming; like “no man will ever find me attractive”, ” I am bit slow “, “i don’t believe my body is strong and healthy”.
I believed them and they manifest.
How you knocked me down Dystonia, but if I wasn’t knocked down, how would I know how to get up?
If I didn’t negatively affirm would I know the benefits of positively affirming?
If you did not cause self hate would i know progressively try to build internal love?
If you didn’t cause chaos in me would I even know how to identify the peace within me?
As you take me through trails I will learn, overcome and achieve.
You have made me understand without rain there is no growth.